My Ex-husband had the kids this past week and I swear he is so toxic to the kids on so many levels. Everytime he has them for any amount of time we pretty much have to detox them from his posion in regards to behaviours and swearing and inappropriate behaviours and omg so many other things. I am so tired of John's bs its so unproductive. He allows them to do things that are dangerous and should be common sense that you wouldn't allow a kids with no impulse control to do.
Its so frustrating to deal with his crap I mean if he can not be a positive role model why even be a part of there lives. I mean really he causes so much shit with the kids and he hurts them and pisses them off and I continue to get shit on over and over again. There are times i get a glimpse of them when them when they are not angry but its rare. He just winds them up and pisses them off and sends them home to me and Mark to deal with . It breaks my heart how John can not give a shit about what he is doing to these kids.
When i left I blindly thought he would be somewhat involved and be consistent and not so damn selfish. I was so wrong. I thought I was removing them from all the verbal abuse but No John and his girlfriend swear at each other and continue to call each other names. Its pathetic and abusive to the kids they hate going to his kids . I never thought I would have to keep him from seeing the kids but apparently that is what I am going to have to do to prevent further damage emotionally I just hope the kids understand why I have no choice. its not womething I would ever intentionally do out of angr but these kids deserve love and compassion and they don't get it from John. It tears me up to think I brought this crap in their lives. I know i didn't know he was going to be like this but he is what he is. I so wish he wasn't a bad father but he is. He only does things with them when he feels like it and alot of the time it is cause he feels obligated to. Its just not fair to them them they have a psycho- religious grandma who disses me any chance she gets and they have a psycho father who is a A class asshole. How i have kept my sanity over the years is beyond me.
Really what did i do to deserve such an asshole ex husband. I really would like to know why I have to deal with such a self obsorbed jerk wad. Its like damn to hell give me a fucking break already. I need some normacy but I just don't see that occurring with John showing up and playing father fucknuts whenever he feels like it.
