This past weekend John came down and took the kids to his mother's sigh. I wish this didn't cause stress or drama but it does. John's mom is pissed that John and I are not together that i took him to  court for child support and that a year and a  half after we separated I had a baby girl with Mark. John moved his fiancee Stacie in before the kids and i even moved out so anything i do is a moot point.
When they have the kids at his mother's she bashes me and  Mark she even Drags Autumn and Nevaeh into it. She tells the kids that Autumn is not their sister.and so much more other crap.
Here is a letter I would love to send my ex monster inlaw but probably never will.

Rhonda,

I have had enough of your emotional abuse to my children seriously you would think someone so close to 60 would have grown up by now. You do realize you have a daughter by a different man than your oldest 2 children. Pot meet kettle you are BLACK . The only difference is that little certificate that says you and Ross are married but now a days their are more people not getting married and even if i was married lady that wouldn't be your business. I do realize your are a very bored house wife who has nothing to do all day but to read your bible and gossip to your Shediac clan. I am here to imform you Lady that you are in fact the hugest hypocrite I have ever met.  Your squirt out little things from your bible and interpet them to fit your life or your delusion of your life. No where in the bible is there any crap about lesbians or gays going to hell. Just because you don't agree with it doesn't mean shit. I am so glad not every person in this world is so full of self hatred as you are and so damn jealous of everyone around you that you feel the need to make rude comments Have some class oh that's right you are beyond class. I feel sorry for you and anyone who has to live with such an ugly woman as yourself. I don't care if you don't like the fact I am with Mark even if i was not with Mark I wouldn't be with John. You all need therapy lady. I do think it is sick that you are so delusional to the fact that you and your children are not perfect and that there are learning disabilities in your family. John has at least 2 but you were not naive to get him help. Your daughter Cheryl goes around telling people she has mental problems you should have had her checked out instead of being so proud that you allowed her to struggle. My sons have learning disabilities and I am not ashamed of them nor will i bury my head in the sand and not help them cope with there issues. You need to shut up and stop your bull shit lady.I don't care go fucking pray your stupidity away cause hunny it will never go away you were born to stupid.

we got a diagnosis

For 8.5 years have known something was different about my son Tyler some people would tell me oh he is a typical boy but they didn't spend alot of time with him. His own father would say oh no he is normal. So after 8.5 yrs Tyler has been diagnosed with Adhd,ptsd,Asperger's syndrome and possibly other learning disabilities. My son Dylan also has Adhd and possibly other learning disabilities and is developmentally delayed. Now just to start on the therapies.

Exes

My Ex-husband had the kids this past week and I swear he is so toxic to the kids on so many levels. Everytime he has them for any amount of time we pretty much have to detox them from his posion in regards to behaviours and swearing and inappropriate behaviours and omg so many other things. I am so tired of John's bs its so unproductive. He allows them to do things that are dangerous and should be common sense that you wouldn't allow a kids with no impulse control to do.
Its so frustrating to deal with his crap I mean if he can not be a positive role model why even be a part of there lives. I mean really he causes so much shit with the kids and he hurts them and pisses them off and I continue to get shit on over and over again. There are times i get a glimpse of them when them when they are not angry but its rare. He just winds them up and pisses them off and sends them home to me and Mark to deal with . It breaks my heart how John can not give a shit about what he is doing to these kids.
When i left I blindly thought he would be somewhat involved and be consistent and not so damn selfish. I was so wrong. I thought I was removing them from all the verbal abuse but No John and his girlfriend swear at each other and continue to call each other names. Its pathetic and abusive to the kids they hate going to his kids . I never thought I would have to keep him from seeing the kids but apparently that is what I am going to have to do to prevent further damage emotionally I just hope the kids understand why I have no choice. its not womething I would ever intentionally do out of angr but these kids deserve love and compassion and they don't get it from John. It tears me up to think I brought this crap in their lives. I know i didn't know he was going to be like this but he is what he is. I so wish he wasn't a bad father but he is. He only does things with them when he feels like it and alot of the time it is cause he feels obligated to. Its just not fair to them them they have a psycho- religious grandma who disses me any chance she gets and they have a psycho father who is a A class asshole. How i have kept my sanity over the years is beyond me.
Really what did i do to deserve such an asshole ex husband. I really would like to know why I have to deal with such a self obsorbed jerk wad. Its like damn to hell give me a fucking break already. I need some normacy but I just don't see that occurring with John showing up and playing father fucknuts whenever he feels like it.

No more stress allowed!!!!

I swear we must exchange one stress for another. Mark got to see Nevaeh on Saturday which was great cause his ex wouldn't allow him to see his daughter for 8 months and ended up going to court so he could see her. I was so awesome to see them together and Nevaeh got to see her baby sister Autumn . I had a hard time containing my tears on the drive up cause it has been soo emotional and it really upset me that Ashley was doing this to Mark and Autumn.

Anyway as I said it seems like i exchange one stress for another. My life is stressful in general and has been for years. I have 4 children: 3 with my ex-husband and 1 with Mark. Mark also has  a daughter as I mentioned above from a previous relationship. My ex doesn't see our kids regularly which causes alot of stress for me because it causes my sons to be angry at their father. My daughter could careless about seeing him cause she has had enough. She is 12 and just doesn't want to be around someone who can't be consistent and who only shows up when its convient for him. My sons ar 10 and 8  and they are getting to the point where they are giving up on having a relationship with their father.  It hurts that he treats our kids like his own personal play thing that he can play with when he has the time . Its not really about me its about the kids. Really its his loss when it comes down to it.
My sons will be going to a psychologist I believe they have adhd they have most to all of the symptoms I have suspected it for years and it has taken me 8 years to get Tyler and Dylan in to see someone as we moved around every few years and we were on a year waiting list here. I have been to 4 sessions with her as there is a lot of info she needs from me before she meets the boys. I got kinda a hard blow last week when she said she wants to test my son Tyler for Autism. In a way I kinda knew they would because I have researched ADD/ ADHD since Tyler was 2.5 yrs old. I have always been concerned with Tyler because he is different then any other boy i had been around. He is extremely hyper at times. It can be rather exhausting emotionally. 
Dylan we believe has ADD and dyslexic. As i said i research everything and they both fit the symptoms. Tyler just has other things going on then Dylan. I will admit the thought of Tyler being Autistic makes me sad because of the label. I don't want to label either of my sons but Ty already has the label of being that kid who is very high energy and the difficult child.
I sometimes wonder why i  have been given such a challenge the boys learning disabilities are just the iceberg of my challenges. My daughter Autumn who will be 7mths tomorrow has ASD Atrial Septal Defect in her heart. She was born with a hole in her heart and at some point within the next year or two may need surgery. As I said  my life is very action packed and stressful at times I don't know how my daughter Arielle(12) is so normal lol . I guess she has to be in a sense. I am being to think maybe i am just not normal either.