I swear we must exchange one stress for another. Mark got to see Nevaeh on Saturday which was great cause his ex wouldn't allow him to see his daughter for 8 months and ended up going to court so he could see her. I was so awesome to see them together and Nevaeh got to see her baby sister Autumn . I had a hard time containing my tears on the drive up cause it has been soo emotional and it really upset me that Ashley was doing this to Mark and Autumn.
Anyway as I said it seems like i exchange one stress for another. My life is stressful in general and has been for years. I have 4 children: 3 with my ex-husband and 1 with Mark. Mark also has a daughter as I mentioned above from a previous relationship. My ex doesn't see our kids regularly which causes alot of stress for me because it causes my sons to be angry at their father. My daughter could careless about seeing him cause she has had enough. She is 12 and just doesn't want to be around someone who can't be consistent and who only shows up when its convient for him. My sons ar 10 and 8 and they are getting to the point where they are giving up on having a relationship with their father. It hurts that he treats our kids like his own personal play thing that he can play with when he has the time . Its not really about me its about the kids. Really its his loss when it comes down to it.
My sons will be going to a psychologist I believe they have adhd they have most to all of the symptoms I have suspected it for years and it has taken me 8 years to get Tyler and Dylan in to see someone as we moved around every few years and we were on a year waiting list here. I have been to 4 sessions with her as there is a lot of info she needs from me before she meets the boys. I got kinda a hard blow last week when she said she wants to test my son Tyler for Autism. In a way I kinda knew they would because I have researched ADD/ ADHD since Tyler was 2.5 yrs old. I have always been concerned with Tyler because he is different then any other boy i had been around. He is extremely hyper at times. It can be rather exhausting emotionally.
Dylan we believe has ADD and dyslexic. As i said i research everything and they both fit the symptoms. Tyler just has other things going on then Dylan. I will admit the thought of Tyler being Autistic makes me sad because of the label. I don't want to label either of my sons but Ty already has the label of being that kid who is very high energy and the difficult child.
I sometimes wonder why i have been given such a challenge the boys learning disabilities are just the iceberg of my challenges. My daughter Autumn who will be 7mths tomorrow has ASD Atrial Septal Defect in her heart. She was born with a hole in her heart and at some point within the next year or two may need surgery. As I said my life is very action packed and stressful at times I don't know how my daughter Arielle(12) is so normal lol . I guess she has to be in a sense. I am being to think maybe i am just not normal either.
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